Your smile through the clouds<Gulistan.>

I’ve learned that things change, people change, and it doesn’t mean you forget the past or try to cover it up; 

it simply means that you move on and treasure the memories. Letting go doesn’t mean giving up. it means accepting that somethings  

weren’t meant to be. 

 Sometimes, I feel like couldn’t let the hurt go, I will thinking about it over and over, this makes me tired. 

Now, I know that The best thing to do is to forgive. By forgive the one who hurt you, you release yourself from being held captive to  

the pain, anger,  bitterness, and from being a slave to that situation. Forgiving the other person allows you to move on. In no way does  

forgiving makes what they did right or  diminishes the wrong of the other. It simply releases you from the pain and anguish associated to the situation. 

 I will try to remember the most important part of healing in NOT revenge, NOT seeing the other person hurt, NOT getting an apology, but to get healing for MYSELF so that I can build better relationships and not make the same mistakes again.

I’m worried about Dad’s health. God please bless him ,please…

life hasn’t been good so far these days, but i will be strong, and fight back. the ache in my heart, it’s constantly there..  I will be strong and fight back.

I had always know, always loved,always keep reminding myself,  Instead of living in the shadows of yesterday, walk in the light of today and the hope of tomorrow.

May Pa, really have a good health, hope God, packed everything nasty, hurtful, unhappy, and regretful and rained some fair dust for everyone. I am seriously hoping and praying right now.

Pa, i love you - if only time could rewind, and i would press stop. let it just stop at that moment forever and ever.