Your smile through the clouds<Gulistan.>

Last week,I went through a rich and meaningful holiday.On the first day,I went to the bookshop,and spent a whole day.On the May 2th, I went to the amusement park with friends.Though it was exceedingly hot ,we enjoyed it  very much.I ever heard a saying that he or she who makes a wishing  on the top of Ferris wheel will be lucky,and his or her dream will come true.So I made a wishing  for myself ,my relatives,Whereas it is fabricated, I prefer to believing it .

  For a long time I seldom get together with him. At first I felt very uneasy. Then I felt that I used to it.  I seem to forget him gradually. At least, I seldom feel the worry and care for him. I don’t know whether this choice is reasonable or unwise.  Sometimes I will think about him, and the enjoyment and happiness when we get together.   It’s a pity that I lose them forever.  

I dont know whether he notices or cares about it. Maybe I am just one of his good friends. The other day Melody said to me that no man will treat you good without purpose.  So, does he treat me more special than other girls? I am not sure.  

I seem to be not a sensitive girl who notices others’ attitude to me.  I just know clearly that when I am with him my heart is full of joy and happiness.. No matter what is the real matter, it’s clear that we are far from each other. However, as a saying goes, the man is the sight animal. 

The man usually crushes to a girl just at the sight of her.   

It’s said that pesons are like hedgehogs in need of warmess. If we are too far away, we can’t get warmness from each other. If we are too close, the thorns over our body will hurt each other. Therefore, the perfect distance between persons is neither too far way nor too close. We should care for, believe and contain each other, and above all, we should leave each other a personal time and space.

it’s strange how a somewhat amazing day (filled with talks, rumbles, jokes and laughter with him) could end so disappointedly. but right now, it feels somewhat better, for which i’m glad.thought about this speedy friendship, about how it had progressed ever since day 1, when i first sat beside him in the library.

all I know is, our barely two-months neutral friendship can never compete with a 3 years long relationship.

 I will take this friendship lightly, i will just enjoy the company, the advices,   the jokes easily. just enjoy and be neutral.  I am a bright girl who knows clearly about my advantages and weakness. But it’s difficult for me to conquer my weakness. Who can help me and who can tell me what I can do?