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I’ve learned that things change, people change, and it doesn’t mean you forget the past or try to cover it up; 

it simply means that you move on and treasure the memories. Letting go doesn’t mean giving up. it means accepting that somethings  

weren’t meant to be. 

 Sometimes, I feel like couldn’t let the hurt go, I will thinking about it over and over, this makes me tired. 

Now, I know that The best thing to do is to forgive. By forgive the one who hurt you, you release yourself from being held captive to  

the pain, anger,  bitterness, and from being a slave to that situation. Forgiving the other person allows you to move on. In no way does  

forgiving makes what they did right or  diminishes the wrong of the other. It simply releases you from the pain and anguish associated to the situation. 

 I will try to remember the most important part of healing in NOT revenge, NOT seeing the other person hurt, NOT getting an apology, but to get healing for MYSELF so that I can build better relationships and not make the same mistakes again.

Do you ever feel lonely. Like when you need someone to pay attention to you, like you’re sick or you need to share your feelings, that there’s no one there that really cares. No one to check up on you if you’re really happy, or if you want to go out at night. 
What do you do?

When the heart get weak is the weakest time just hold myself tight ,that’s fine whatever happen,goodness or worth my heart still has the loneliness . 

Although, there are always someone with me , but I feel they are invisible, no more feeling, no more understanding ,no more real happiness… 

I have to keep those feelings inside because even you said several times ,no one understand what exactly you want,they only care about themselves. the most terrible fact is someone keep telling you that he is understand you and care about you a lot but he never really dose or never understand what you want.I have to carry on walking, with loneliness. I want to end it but I don’t know how because I don’t want to get hurt …. Personality never change and always the problem,the terrible thing is you don’t want to talk about that anymore and it means things will goes wrong never have chance to be good. hopeless ending….

When the winter comes or the rain pass by the time pass , keep going with the loneliness in your heart.

My sister called me today! Yay! My sister and I are super close, I will visit her in this December and this makes me exciting!   

But today - as often in the past - after looking at the literature review went online. Googled a bit. Clicked away the stupid articles of literature review. And found a good idea here, a nice addition here. And I ended up .sort of as if I had called 2 friends and they have no ideas about their articles.  

  Okay, I feel like an idiot since this is a small thing in the great scheme of things.  But maybe just writing it out will make me feel better.  

I suppose I  have no a reason for going out for shopping, my exam results were not satisfied me , I can feel the heavy waves of stress. 

In fact, the Anne was so annoyed at me , it was so unfair to me… I know this is petty, but my feelings are just so hurt.  I can’t ever  

say anything to anyone there, but maybe just telling it to the group will help me kind of get it out and move on.  

 sometimes the toughest thing about feelings is sharing them with others. Sharing your feelings helps you when your feelings are good and when they aren’t so good. Sharing also helps you to get closer to people you care about and who care about you. When people talk about feelings, they sometimes use the word "emotions."  

 The way a person feels inside is important. It can be really hard not to tell anyone that you’re feeling sad, worried, or upset. Then, it’s just you and these bad feelings. If you keep feelings locked inside, it can even make you feel sick! 

Feeling down? Got the blues? You’re not alone. Everyone gets sad. Yes, everyone you’ve ever met. 

When you’re in a sad mood, it may feel like it will last forever, but usually feelings of sadness don’t last very long — a few hours or maybe a day or two. A deeper, more intense kind of sadness that lasts a lot longer is called depression  Sadness is a feeling — it’s one of the many normal human emotions, or moods, we all have. Sadness is the emotion people feel when they’ve lost something important, or when they have been disappointed about something, or when something sad has happened to them or to someone else. When they’re lonely, people often feel sad.

When you’re sad, the world may seem dark and unfriendly. You might feel like you have nothing to look forward to. The hurt deep inside may crush your usually good mood.  

Most of the time, sadness is because of a loss or separation, a difficult change or disappointment about something, or relationship problems.  

Try to open your heart to the person who you trust,  There is always somebody to talk to when you are sad or if you are depressed — somebody who can help.

Life is short, and we all need to step back and realize how great it really can be. 

Be optimistic. Think of life in the best way possible, bright side and find the better side of every situation. You would be amazed at how much more there is to life than the negative.

Live every moment to the fullest. Don’t waste a single second being sad, bored, or lonely. Get out there and dance, and sing as if no one was around. You never know how much longer you have to do so.  

 Laugh often. This is possibly the most important point in this how-to guide. Laughter is the number one most important thing in life. Laugh much, and smile often.  

 Live in the present. Forget about the past, as there is nothing you can do about it. Don’t worry about the future, as what is to come is to come, and if you forget to live in the moment, you would be surprised at how quickly time can slip.  

Be kind to everyone. Kindness is the key to unlocking your own happiness and joy. If others notice your kindness, they will gratefully return it. Make as many close friends as you can, and help them when they are down, as you never know when you will need them to catch you.  

Find a Partner. Find someone to love can be very hard however just be patient and maybe that special person will come along.

This week went by quickly than i excepted,.Every day set out early and come back late.

Now i am habit to this blog,i always concentrated my spirit and heart to this blog ,every word reflect through my mind when i touch my computer,  During my schooling period, my learning is wonderfull , i miss that old days so much.however , time flied away when people is not aware of it.